Everyday is a new chapter in my life; an opportunity for a fresh start. I am starting to really understand what it means to “live in the now:” it is knowing the past cannot be changed and the future is fragile and full of uncertainities. This is common knowledge that comes with tons of cliche’ mottos, but it takes a while to actually get your head wrapped around it all. The fleeting second in which we currently exist, and death, are the only two things which seem to be solid, concretely real.
When your past memories repeat in your mind as they so often do, your present self begins slipping away. But without memories, you feel like you would forget who you are, because it all makes up who you are, right? Well, as a thought, consider this.
Events in life effect you, no doubt, but at the center of who you are I believe there is a personality you came into life with; a core-self, despite experiences. When you were a child, though you had little memories to base your life off of, you still had strong defining characteristics; and you were perhaps more purely yourself than you are now.
Events in life may even make us or sway us to stray away from this natural self, though congruently they help us grow and expand. We could try on a million different personas and adapt ourself to one that is the absolute opposite of our natural self, and even be that different person for our entire life. If that were the case though, perhaps we would be on the familiar journey of trying to “find ourself.” If you are on such a journey, try acting without restraints or inhibitions, like you did as a child, and see if you feel more of who you really are, not pretending to be anyone else. It may just be that easy to self-actualize, and likewise, that difficult.
Memories change everytime we re-remember them, the future is inconsistent until it arrives, therefore it is not a certainty. Now, is all we have, and all we really ever will have.
So, let go of anxiety, let go of regrets, let go of fears. Become Free.
Everyday, every moment, is a new start; make it into exactly what you want, create your perfect reality.
And thank the Universe for the marvelous fraction of a second in which we are blessed enough to exist within.